I am not sure. I am not sure why I will post here. Boredom? To better understand the thoughts I have? I am not sure. I am doing away with the old style of this blog and turning it into an outlet for thoughts. To you these "thoughts" may make all or non of the sense in the world. Thats o.k. As long as what you read intrigues, entertains, disgusts, or makes you think or reflect. I think that to understand yourself you have to understand where your thoughts come from. So without further hesistance I release my mind onto the world at large.
I like to think of myself as someone who looks at life from a different perspective but am I really? I mean my world revolves around a handful of things. My family, my school (job in the future), but one thing I can't get past. MONEY. Why do I go to school and work? To get a good job. Why do I want a good job? To buy more guitars!! Honestly because it will pay well. I could not give a shit less about a good job other than if it pays well and is something that even remotley interests me. Lets face it, I don't think there is one of us out there who doesn't have an end goal of "making enough money." I think that in a basic way all of us are raised in a way that money is important or at least has a some kind of impact on the way we live our lives. I don't think any of us realize it either. Its just life. You go to work for five days of the week to really live for the other two. That to me makes no sense at all. I understand that I hvae to keep my family housed, fed, and whatnot but is it really worth all the struggle? Is there something greater than the daily struggle for a slice of the pie? I mean the majority of us are probably not born with a silver spoon in our mouth. Those of us who aren't have to scratch and claw and fight for every step up the financial "ladder." What is the end result? Just another step and another stuggle to be "secure." Whatever that means. So all this begs the thought we want to have more. WANT. That is the key word. Satisfaction is is the death of desire. What do we have to do to bury desire? Find your own answer. I haven't reached my satisfaction yet. I will admit that. I am not afraid to have a desire. I am afraid that money will consume me through desire. Will it you?
